An Unlikely Love Story- Part 2

In his heart a man plans his course…but the Lord determines his steps…

So as I drove away that day from IHOP where Ellison and I had our first meeting my heart was so sad. I called my sis, and said lets meet up for lunch. My sweet friend Cindy came too, and I remember sitting down to eat with them and bawling my eyes out as I told them how we had a really good time together, but then when he dropped the “cancer” word, I immediately thought, “No Lord I can’t do this” Funny how we think we know how much we can go through right? I just felt like it would be a setup for heart break.

So Ellison texted me later in the day and said how much he had enjoyed our time together and looked forward to meeting up again. I didn’t reply back right away. I felt so terrible. It felt like a death sentence, and I felt so torn. So I waited til the afternoon of the following day when I finally messaged him and told him I felt like I wasn’t interested in pursuing a relationship, and explained to him why. He was understanding, and made a statement that when he began to pray about seeking a wife after a period of mourning the death of his first wife, and God gave him peace about it, he said he knew it would take a “special” women to want to be in a relationship with him. I thought to myself, well bless his heart, but it’s definitely not me.

So that weekend I tried to fill my evenings with things to keep my mind off everything. I went to dinner and a musical play with me sweet friend Jana on Friday night.

I don’t remember much about the weekend except I was sad. I had come to look forward to chatting with Ellison evenings, and he would always message me, per my request, no matter what time of the night it was when he finished work to let me know he had made it home safely. Sundays we would share what we had learned at church.

On Monday we were busy with work so the day passed quickly.

Tuesday I gathered together my tomatoes and canning Jars and headed to Sharon’s house to do our annual tomato canning of salsa, tomato juice, and tomato soup. We had a really busy day and were really tired. all day I was struggling with the thought of telling Sharon how much I was missing Ellison. I thought to myself “she will think I am entirely crazy!”so I waited til we were finished with everything, and I got up the courage to tell her. I said,”You know it’s the strangest thing, but I really miss Ellison.”

To Be Continued-