An Unlikely Love Story- Continued-Part 3

God said… Is anything to hard for me?

So late that August night after all the tomatoes were canned and the jars were popping one after the other with that sweet popping sound of a jar sealing, I finally got the courage to say to Sharon, “It’s really weird but I’m missing Ellison.” I’ll admit my thought process was that she would say to me, ” You’re crazy, this can’t be God and you just need to let it go.” But… her response was totally different than I expected.

She paused a minute and said, “You know I was kind of disappointed when you so quickly cut off the possibility of a relationship with Ellison. How do you know whether God has sent you into his life at this time to be a help to him?” You see she had seen how my eyes lit up when I would get a text message from him, and how excited I was to share with her what we had been chatting about.

I’ll admit, I had been haunted by the statement Ellison had made concerning him knowing it would be a “Special woman” who God would send to him in his situation. It was like God kept whispering in my ear, “What if I called you to be that woman?” I would just always say to myself, no it couldn’t possibly be me, but on the other hand it was like I felt it would be an honor for the woman that God did call. Also at one point as I was thinking and praying and trying to convince my self that I surely couldn’t be the one God was calling to be the “Special” one, I was telling God this was too hard, and I felt Him speak right down into my heart saying, “Is ANYTHING too hard for me?” I didn’t realize at the time that this was actually in scripture just like that, but I went searching, and it was there!! It is in Genesis 18:14 where God told Abram that he and Sarah would have a son, and when Abram told Sarah, she laughed, and God spoke to her and said “Is anything too hard for the Lord?” Also in Jeremiah is a very similar scripture.

So Sharon said to me, “Why don’t you just tell him you are open to being friends, and see where it goes from there?” Honestly that was all the encouragement I needed. I knew Ellison would still be up altho it was about 10:30 PM, because of his work schedule, so I was on my phone right away texting him. Later he told me he had just parked his truck at home, when he heard the text message come through. When he saw the message, he said it was in that moment he knew I was the one God had sent to him. I still have to cry as I write this when I realize how easily we can miss the will of God if we are not sensitive to His leading. But I thank God for his great Love and patience.

So he messaged be back almost immediately and thanked me for the text and said that yes he would like to be friends, and we could see where God would lead us from there.

So the following days we continued texting, and looking back we laugh because Ellison said he was beginning to wonder if I would ever tell him it’s ok to call me. LOL! So I had this phobia that we would get on the phone and not have anything to talk about. So I wanted to text until I knew we could carry on a conversation good. Funny I know. 🙂

Like I mentioned earlier, Ellison’s job was early afternoon to late night about 10:30-12 midnight depending on how many loads he had to haul. So we weren’t able to get together before Saturday. So we decided go to the park Saturday afternoon and take a walk on the Green Belt which is a really nice walking trail, one part of it winds around Lake Carroll. So we went there and parked and started talking in the truck. We chatted for a bit, and before we know it we looked at the time and 3+ hours had passed. So we contemplated and thought we should at least go and get a bit of exercise, so we walked bout 45 minutes. 🙂

By that time we were hungry and decided to go to Cracker Barrel for dinner. We continued conversation over dinner, still seemingly never running out of things to talk about. So by about 8:00 that night, Sharon hadn’t heard from me and thought she better check in with me to see if I was ok.;-) I told her I was fine. LOL By the end of that date I already knew this was much more than a friendship. We were so comfortable together, we felt like we could talk about anything really.

Saying that to say, in 2017 when I for the first time in my life began to pray and ask God to give me a companion. Yes this was the first time, and reason being that for years I didn’t see myself worthy that any man could really love me. Yes here in my story I am being very transparent and vulnerable. Maybe someone can be encouraged by reading this to not doubt God’s ability to bring you together with your soulmate. You see every day Ellison’s job took him right by my family’s business where I worked, but if I hadn’t stepped out and became vulnerable on Match.com who knows if we had ever met. I was very skeptical because of living my life up to that point quite independently, whether I could really be or find someone who I could be compatible with. I had witnessed my parents have a really good marriage and saw them love and cherish each other until my Mom’s death separated them. So I had a beautiful example of what a Godly marriage looks like, but I wondered if that would be possible for me. However I was really lonely, and here I will insert another credit to a sweet cousin who is also one of my best friends, Gina Graber. I want to thank you for encouraging me to try the online dating thing. It was your encouragement that gave me the courage to put my profile out there, and let me tell you my friends, God can use anything he chooses to if it means fulfilling His will in our lives. If actually used an ass, yes that’s what the Bible calls the animal, to speak, He can use anything.

…to be continued